Thursday, May 23, 2013

Regret...

Share it Please

re·gret  

/riˈgret/
Verb
Feel sad, repentant, or disappointed over (something that has happened or been done, esp. a loss or missed opportunity).
Noun
A feeling of sadness, repentance, or disappointment over something that has happened or been done.
Synonyms
verb.  rue - deplore - repent - lament - mourn - be sorry
noun.  repentance - remorse - sorrow - grief - contrition

MISSED OPPORTUNITY... hmmm we've all had those.  What is our response to those missed opportunities? I wish I would have added a huge hamburger to my 7 food list :-/ 


I am not usually a person that lives and camps out in regret.  Usually I am a positive person but this whole 7 thing has me looking at life and everything differently... through a different filter than I normally do.  Day 2 was extremely hard for me the night before I hadn't slept well and the thought of only being 2 days in and knowing I had 28 more ahead was killing me.  All day I lived in the world of REGRET!!!  After lunch time I was doing the dishes (which never ends haha) and I had this realization that all day I had been negative and living in a place of, this is too hard... why did I go so extreme... I should have not limited myself so much... why didn't I add this food or take away this one... why why why??  As the day went on I began to think of a man that has changed our lives so much, his name is Josh.  A homeless man we met on May 1st.  I began to think about him and his addictions and where he lives and how his life must be full of regret.  I was becoming so overtaken with regret of decisions and choices that I could then relate to Josh and how he would turn to his addiction to alcohol to numb the pain of regret.  


I know my situation and Josh's situation are VERY different, in 21 more days I can go back to my normal way of eating and I will always have a full belly, never in fear of where my next meal will come from.  BUT all that led Josh to where he is today is a few bad decisions that led to regret.  In Josh's case it wasn't even HIS choices that effected his life but the choices of his parents.  His mom left when he was 4 and his dad was a drunk and ended up in jail... off to foster care Josh went and separated from his brother.  I am sure the same questions of why and if I had only... were in his face everyday as he bounced from one home to another and now to living on the streets.  

We all have choices in life, they are hard and a lot of the time we pound our fists and stomp our feet like a toddler at the things that we know are right and are difficult.  But those hard things that we choose to do lead us to a path of victory and a life free from regret.  Freedom lives when we surrender our hearts and lives to the Lord not living in the past of who we used to be but trudging forward in our new identity of who we are today in Christ.  We have to accept our choices in life and live them out with JOY and not regret (hard to do... I know).  Sometimes we make the wrong choices and it makes life a tad more difficult but do we stay in a place of regret that leads to pain or hand it over to an unseen God, trust that our Heavenly Father cares and sees our needs.  Just like Josh the Lord sees him and loves him even in his poor choices and desires to use us to care for each other and see each other as brothers and sisters in Christ.  

I am no longer regretting my food choices... I have 21 more days and I am so grateful that after these 30 days I get to return to a fruitful life that is free from fear.  I am so grateful for the seasoning and variety in life we have... So many choices.  We truly are a blessed nation and sooo wealthy.  Thank you Lord for choosing this to be my home I am so grateful and humbled.  

Philippians 3:13-14

13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
Matthew 25:31-46 if you want to be rocked... has nothing to do with regret but about feeding and clothing Jesus.  AHHH tugs at my heart soooo stinkin much.  




No comments:

Post a Comment